Well here I am, up early again on my day off no less, waiting for the cable guy to show and fix the problem with our desktop PC connection, which we just had installed a couple days ago. He begged off yesterday after I got up early to be ready when he got here, claiming he had a meeting and was running late, and I had to be at work, so he said 10am sharp today. It is now 1014 and I have nary a phone call or visit. I try to be understanding in these situations, but when one pays for a service and it doesn't perform like it should, those responsible for the service should take care of the problem ASAP. I don't mind schedule changes for the most part, but when I get out of bed expecting a serviceman to show, I expect the man to show.

It's like that episode of Seinfeld where Kramer is keeping away from the cable guy because he's been pirating free cable and the guy keeps telling him...."I'll be there between 8am and 2pm" so Kramer decides to teach the guy a lesson and play the same game.

Maybe I'll call the cable company and tell them they can show anytime between 10am and 4pm and then not be here when they show.

Wait. Then my PC would still have the problems. How stupid is this?

They got us by the balls.

I'd like to thank Emily, Becky, Harmony, Bonnie and Kristin for the replies to my smoking blog. The words of encouragement, the stories, the time you took to respond.....very appreciated and helpful. I am so glad for my network of friends, you've been there for me from day one and you continue to be beacons of light in my troubled hours, smiles to brighten my days, and though we've never seen each other in the physical, our souls share common hopes, fears, ups, downs, the good, the bad and the ugly.

I pray for each of you, I think of each of you, I look forward to logging on in the evenings to see what's happening in our world through your eyes. Thank you for bringing yourself to my world.

By the way, and please don't be mad......but..........

I couldn't stand it and bummed a couple a smokes today.

I know, I know....not cool.  

Well it's been an interesting couple days. I've given up cigarettes, the last habit I've held onto of putting something toxic into my body. I'm irritable, nervous, and generally not fun to be around. But I'm determined because I feel in my heart and mind now is the time. I'm going cold turkey, no patches, no gums, no crutches. Everyone always told me how difficult it was to stop smoking, I guess I didn't realize how difficult, but I certainly understand now. I was craving one so bad after I got off work yesterday I almost dug into my old ash can I threw in the garbage to see if there were any butts worth lighting up, and I thought how pathetic is this? It reminded me of when I would geek when I was drugging, and I didn't like that feeling or comparison at all.

With God's help I'm going to beat this thing. I'm sick of smelling like smoke, tasting like smoke, spending 5 bucks a pack, just generally tired of the whole process. So keep me in your prayers as I fight yet another battle.

Have a great day everyone!

It's so quiet at night there's not a sound

The silence away from the city

The only thing maybe heard is a train

Coming through this little town

Everyone to their room try a wink or two

Dawn awakens for another day

Then the sounds echo through like a train

Coming through this little town

Love has come and promised it would stay

Tomorrow could be no more

We can stay another day

Hold me tightly whisper me of your love

Tomorrow may be no more

We can stay another day

When I am home resting my bones

Finding Peace and some feeling

Pause in the sound the silence of mood

In this little town

At the end of the day think of the sounds

Oh the songs you could play

All you need to hear

Distance of fears

In this little town

Come on let's stay another day

Can any of you computer savvy people out there answer a question for me?

Why are the MBs for ripped CDs smaller than the MBs for MP3 downloads?